Or you're sinking like a stone
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
(Carry On by Fun. Lyrics from elyrics.com)
I've been thinking a lot about this song. It's so easy to feel like you are alone in life's storms and trials. It's even easier to feel like no one 'gets it' or wants to be bothered by your troubles. And even for those whose faith is what sustains and carries them, it is easy to think that GOD is tired of listening to your troubles and is ready to give up on you.
For those who struggle with depression or anxiety, it's easy to fall into that pit where just the thought of taking one more step on the path of life is just to much to even contemplate. Maybe that's why I like this song... "if you're lost and alone or you're sinking like a stone Carry on." Just one more step, one more breath is all it takes. Just one more day. and one more. and one more. Because even when we think that the hope is run out, Jesus is there waiting to offer us a refill. Pastor spoke about doubt this week. Last week was Easter, and she talked about how we can count on there being something more than what we are experiencing now. This week she talked about Thomas and his doubt, and how we are so much like him. We so often doubt that our pain is anything that He would bother with. We are so sure that we have to figure things out before we can get to where He is. We fear that we are the one person that He will give up on, that He will turn His back on us because we aren't 'getting it right'. Thankfully we are wrong. Jesus will always meet us where we are... even in the midst of our doubts, or fears, or anxieties, or whatever it is that is pulling us down. He will never leave us alone. He will always be on that path with us.
We just have to decide to keep taking another step. And when we get to the end of our lives, our past will in fact be the sound of those steps on the ground, the 'sound' of our decisions to keep going. Even if we felt lost and alone. Even if we felt like we were sinking and drowning.
Carry on my friends. Carry on. The Savior is walking with you. He will never leave you, never forsake you, never ever give up on you. You were bought with a price that is far too high for Him to let you go. Let Him meet you on the road. Let Him hold you and carry you and give you His peace.