A Journey of Faith

Monday, July 8, 2019

Stand in the Light

There is this song that I love...
It's called "Stand in the Light" by Jordon Smith. This guy has an amazing voice... but the lyrics are what grab my heart and make my soul sigh with contentment

These are the lyrics...

Stand in the light and be seen as we are
Didn't I tell you I hear what you say?
Never look back as you're walking away
Carry the music, the memories and keep them inside
You
Laugh every day
Don't stop those tears from falling down
This is who I am inside
This is who I am, I'm not going to hide
'Cause the greatest risk we'll ever take is by far
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
With courage and kindness hold onto your faith
You get what you give and it's never too late
To reach for the branch and climb up leaving sadness behind
You
Fight hard for love
We can never give enough
This is who I am inside
This is who I am, I'm not going to hide
'Cause the greatest risk we'll ever take is by far
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
Riding the storms that come raging towards us we dive
Holding our breath as we break through the surface
With arms open wide
With arms open wide
This is who I am inside
This is who I am, I'm not going to hide
'Cause the greatest risk we'll ever take is by far
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
Ah
'Cause the greatest risk we'll ever take is by far
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
To stand in the light and be seen as we are
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"Riding the storms that come raging towards us we dive, holding our breath as we break through the surface with arms open wide."

Oh my... this is exactly how I felt three years ago when ALL the storms were raging around me, tearing my safe harbor apart and casting it aside and throwing me into a tailspin that in some ways I am just now breaking free of. I held my breath as my marriage ended, as my pastor (and mentor) left to serve a new church, as my therapist left for a new job, as I put my children into public school after homeschooling them for years, as I battled an eating disorder and anxiety that crippled me at times and depression that demanded I have a team of support people who were now leaving my life one by one. I held my breath as I figured out who I was and who I was becoming. I held my breath as I took a real look at my faith and my relationship with my God. And when I had worked hard and learned how to take care of myself, when I came to know myself and trust myself and actually (dare I say it???) like myself, I was able to start to move into the light as myself.

So who am I?

I am strong. I fought ED (eating disorder) and won
I am wise. I saw things in my life that were toxic and harmful and made choices that were healthy for me
I am stubborn. I not going to give up when I know what I need to do
I am loyal. If  you are one of my people, I am there for you. period
I am honest. Might not make some people happy (though I try to always be kind in my honesty) but I'm not going to lie just because it makes my life (or someone else's) easier
I am a woman of faith. I love God with all my heart and love God's people too

It feels so good to stand in the light... to stand in God's light and know that I can face the raging storms, I can come up from under the waves that try to drown me, I can reach up to the branch where happiness lives and escape the sadness that I have lived with most of my life. 

I am thankful for the light. I am thankful for the courage to take the risk to stand in faith and lean on that faith to sustain me and strengthen me and propel me into the life that God has for me.

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